Emotional pain can be difficult to fully process
the ups and downs, the identity crisis
but there are times a beauty of life exists
and in the morning, resulting in a magnificent bliss
It shows up while I sleep
an emotional leap
I can’t explain where it came from
the barrier that I have overcome
A newfound strength
and all the pain disappeared
It’s happened more than once
that somehow there’s no more barrier
No more will I cry
as life peeled the last layer
that has scarred me inside
a universal savior
Somehow I let go
released to live the beauty of my soul
by some miracle when I woke up
there was a bountiful peace, which I refuse to give up
I’ve been renewed while asleep
my spirit knew I was no longer weak
the internal pain that causes depression
has surrendered to a more powerful dimension
The user used, was no longer useful and therefore got used.
(What’s your interpretation?)
There’s no need to live in pretense
if you need your space
because your heart has left this place
Don’t be a coward and let me have closure
be truthful, be sure it’s not something we can’t talk over
I can only build on this experience
the signs are all there, we’re no longer intimate
For your absence not to haunt me with questions
don’t wait a few years to bring forth your confessions
You ask me to keep a promise. To me it depends on the type. If for a shower, a date of engagement, with these kind I am fine.
If your request has a dark side, an event that someone will hurt, I will not accept your request. I will not stay in an infinite alert. Do not even ask me, if this promise will haunt me in life. Because if it does, one day I must release this invisible knife. I will not keep a promise, that between you and me, may cause a divorce, or is not of the same family tree. For those that are cheating, don’t let me in. I don’t want to know that you’re caught up in a whim.
Don’t ask me to promise, if what you truly seek, is to use me to open your world of deceit. Don’t be a coward, your mind running and hiding the truth. If freedom you need from the secret you keep, the price you may pay will eventually catch up with you.
A few years together
and my heart not quite sure
if another few years
will do us any good
Although things are great
and you are so sweet
I’m lacking something inside
but not sure what I seek
I need time alone, a few days or a week
to visit a friend, or maybe my family
all I know is, I need time away
from my job and this house
a stress-free getaway
Upon my return, I will be re-energized
new thoughts and plans, I hope to realize
the investment of time, is not just for me
for while I’m away I’ll know how much
or how little, you cherish me
If looks could kill you:
I would have died several times. High egos & insecure people by nature have to be the attention receivers. Don’t roll your eyes when you see me. People are naturally attracted to me because I’m not pretentious.
If that look would make me your lover:
The lust in your eyes, and you just met me, tells me your relationship can easily be distracted. I’m not the kind to let you put another notch on your belt, but I’m quite sure another woman would.
The look you just gave me:
I haven’t seen you in a while and you looked at me from top to bottom. Please don’t feel insecure and compare my body to yours. We are both beautiful and we are not competing. Just love who you are—what you see in me is peace, self-confidence and grace. Your beauty is then enhanced and it shows in your face.
The look turned into a stare:
Why do you stare at me? As if you are trying to read my past life. That is a little eerie and annoying. Please just ask questions. I’m no mystery. Maybe I’ll share a few of my memories.
The look of surprise:
What have you done? I hope what ever it was will not hurt anyone. Don’t look at me now because I will have to discreetly be looking for clues to know how I may have to react to you.
Whether envy, lust, insecurity, mystery or surprise, the emotional look-once it’s given-will be impossible to disguise.
When you are feeling “empty,” a longing for something, you’re in a predicament that needs to be dealt with. It is your sign it’s time for personal growth. Go ahead, go for it. Only you know, or will soon be lead to, what it is.
Love yourself. Claim your next phase in life and reinvent yourself. It will bring forth contentment.